For some reason, I’ve been getting hungry about an hour before my meal time for almost a week now. I’m not sure what’s going on, but it sure is annoying. The funny thing is, I thought for sure this meant I would be sure to see a big drop in weight this month; I lost a whopping 1/2 pound. Ha! Maybe if I don’t change anything this month, the weight loss would show up next month, though, since this hunger thing is a new development.

I don’t know if I’ll be able to go a full month without making a change if this continues, though. I don’t do well with hunger. It scares me and triggers negative reactions in my mind. I know I won’t die between meals, but logic doesn’t help a whole lot when hunger comes to town. It’s such a driving, primal force!

My sick mind is so torn between wanting to keep my food the same so I will lose weight and making a change so I can eat more. Both sides of my compulsive eating disease are rearing their ugly heads. I left a message for my sponsor about the hunger, so I’m sure we’ll come up with a plan of action for this - and I can return to sanity.